f l e s h a n d b o n e

pffft

Tue, 23 Sep 2008 21:16:36 GMT

I'm definitely in love with John Mayer today
<3

I've been doing so good with this weightloss thing until right now, man. I'm having a bit of a hard time these past few weeks. But I'm still truckin, aha. Since may I've lost a smiddddge away from 40 lbs, so I guess I'm quite pleased with that.

I've got a few pictures from Niagara this weekend, but waiting for carole to upload the ones I took with her camera is like waiting for the second coming of christ. Honestly.

right on the edge! booyaka

Me and the Carole. Can you tell how happy she is to be out at 7:30 in the morning? aha

View from our Hotel room

And last but not least, I attempted to curl my hair with an Iron for the first time ever! ahah. Not too bad, I guess.

So I'm on vacation this week. I don't have to go back to work until next Monday! woooo. And I'm going back to Niagara next weekend for a girls weekend. HOW excited am I? Seriously.

Ta ta, my dears <3

pffft

Tue, 02 Sep 2008 23:13:50 GMT

So I'm getting rid of my holly bun today. Now that I don't have bunsen, I don't really want rabbits. So off to Laura's he's goin!

I'm going to school for makeup in January! SO excited. Nooooria's coming with me. We're going to be pro's soon.

I went to republik with Sarah on the weekend. GREAT time! Love that lady!

I'm planning a bbq/ picnic in barrie in a couple of weekends. SHould be a great time.

PHoto update?

okay, so it's like all of my makeup and my Michael Kors Sunglasses. So what ! Love it.

I'm not dead, I swear !!

Wed, 20 Aug 2008 22:33:44 GMT

So I've neglected the livejournal, once again. What can ya do. I'm updating now, yes?

I can't even remember the last thing I updated on, so I'll just do a fly by update.

Things are not too shabby. Work sucks, that's nothing new. Lookin for something else at the moment.
I have the best friends ever! And I love them. I see Meredith all the freakin time, which is WONDERFUL. Best friend ev-ar!! Tuna, you meathead, moved to the west. That sucks. I'll come visit soon for our princess diaries night <3. I work with my friend Noooooria. We went to Niagara Falls a few weeks back. Had the best day I've had in a LONG time. I see Trevor pretty often. He's a good one.

I love my damn car, ahah.

I got a kitten named Charlie <3

Bunsen died today :( I love that little bun.

I've lost 31 lbs and counting !

I can no longer watch the news. It makes me sick.

And that's about it . Quick and sweet. Maybe I'll keep it up.

Thu, 15 May 2008 20:33:25 GMT

Today ...the weather is absolutely love. And last weekend was awesome. On friday I went to Meredith and John's apartment and brought them their little gifty. I really like it. It's a cute apartment. Trevor came over as well and we all "watched" the hockey game and chilled. Then Trevor and I left and I went home.

On Saturday I did some running around during the day and bought some really cute wedge sanals. That night I went to Crocodile rock with the ladies for nooria's birthday. Fabulous evening. We were standing outside and one of our drivers showed up and decided to join us. ahaa. It was pretty funny, but I had a good time.

This week is going by pretty slow. But I think I'm going to buy a car. I have to go check it out, but I'm excited. It's a 2001 Pontiac Sunfire. It's a 2 door which isn't my choice, but the car is a good price. It's E tested, certified and fully loaded. For only 4000! So in about a half an hour I'm going to go check it out, see if it's a good buy, get some plates and I've got a set of wheels!

cute ? I'd look spicy driving that!

EDIT: I NOW OWN THAT CAR! I love my little sunflower <3

Fri, 09 May 2008 19:01:03 GMT

okay. I'm angry. I'm officially really, really angry and I really don't like it. I can't rememeber the last time I was this angry. I actually CRIED at work today. Not in front of anyone, obviously. I went outside, called my aunt, explained the situation and as I was talking I just started crying because I am SO stressed out. I asked for a raise a month ago from last monday. I didn't expect it to go through the first week, but the second week I was waiting for it. It wasn't on my pay stub. So I asked about it. The manager was off because he had surgery. Okay, that's forgivable. And I explained that I'd like it on my next pay cheque. No problem. Second week goes by. No change. I ask again. Yeah, its going through. don't worry. I check my bank account last night. The third week. NO CHANGE. So I ask the manager again today. "yeah, it'll start on monday" "Okay, I'm getting paid for the weeks that I've been waiting for it. Right ?" " No'. So by the time I get paid for my raise.. It'll be SIX FUCKING WEEKS after I asked for it and was told I was going to get it. And I'm not going to get paid for any of the weeks that I've been waiting for it. Please explain to me how that's fair.
I improved the way I did the job so that I could prove that I derserved the raise. And it's not like I was asking for more money than everyone else was getting. I asked to MATCH what everyone else was getting because I am FUCKING under paid. Honestly. I'm so mad right now. And it makes me upset because I try really hard. I show up everyday. I don't have any issues with any of the drivers at work. They all seem to like me. I go above and beyond what I'm asked to do and this is how I'm treated? The entire company can go fuck themselves. I told them I didn't want the money anymore if they weren't going to pay me for the weeks that Ivebeen waiting.

I feel really destructive right now. I want to break things and scream and cry and tell everyone what I really think of them. I want to be really mean and I really don't like this feeling.

before you know it you're frozen

Tue, 06 May 2008 20:33:45 GMT

So ..it's been a while since I've updated, but thats okay.

Things have been alright, I guess. I can't complain about too much.   I went out on Saturday and had my hair cut and highlighted. All the way out to jane and lawrence. what a MISSION, seriously. Oh well. The lady was pretty good though. Her dog humped my leg every chance he got though. ahaha. "Teddy"

Work has been okay lately as well. Yesterday was BUSY which is not what I'm used to any more. But it was a nice change from doing nothing all day.
Today at work my back/hip started to hurt again (read back a few entries) even though I've been doing the stretches daily. It was pretty mild throughout the day though. But as soon as I got home it started getting really bad. And now I'm back to the point of not being able to walk without crying. This is ridiculous! seriously.   It'd better be better by the weekend. I have some serious plans for saturday night!

I don't have much else to say though. Except i'm freakin hungry! lol

sing us a song and we'll sing it back to you

Tue, 29 Apr 2008 21:29:09 GMT

This moment, right now, is such a breath of fresh air. I feel motivated. I feel energized. I'm happy, and I feel like I can do whatever I want. I never want this feeling to end. It's so refreshing considering I've been in such a "rough" mood lately. I haven't felt motivation in ages! I feel like I could run for miles. I'm so used to feeling beat and tired afterwork. Days like today at work make me feel defeated.

I try so hard to stay calm, to not stress out over things I would have once considered minor. To not let what other people say bother me. To not be so disappointed with myself because it's not working. And right now, in this moment I don't even have to try. I'm not stressed out, I don't care what anyone has to say and I feel great about myself because I feel like I can do anything I put my mind to.

Work today was horrid. I had a terrible sleep, so waking up at four thirty obviously was no good. I got to work and I was just so damn tired. But the day was okay up until they told us that our computer system would be down for 2 and a half hours. Honestly, do you know how much that SUCKS? My entire job is working off of that computer. We input the CAA calls into the computer, I dispatch them from the computer to the drivers pagers. I look at my computer screen to see where the drivers are dropping their calls so that I can line up their next ones. But when the computer goes down we can't put the calls in. I can't dispatch them through the computer so I have to say it all over the radio. And then I have to listen to the drivers bitch about the price of fuel (which I know is a big deal, but really, what the hell can I do about it?). And then since I don't have my computer, I can't see where they're dropping the car. So I have to go over to Laura's desk to see where some of the drivers are clearing since she has two computers. One of which has nothing to do with our computer system, only CAA's. But then once the computers are working again we have to put all of the calls that weren't put into the computer into the system. then we have to dispatch them and give the driver their authorization numbers for all of the old calls. and then we have to clear them off while keeping up with the incoming work load while answering the phones. Christ. It's such a mission. And I wish they could just do their maintence shit at night when there's no need to use it, you know?

Anyways, that's just my rant about that. I feel great now though. I played some build-a-lot 2. (it's a computer game that you can download and I seriously suggest that you check it out. I'm addicted. Level 35 already. )

So yes, here's to my mood staying like this for EVER!!!!

papi chulo

Sun, 06 Apr 2008 14:42:05 GMT

I have honestly had an amazing weekend. Best one I've had in a while. I love my ladies. I'm going to set this post up old school styles!

Friday :

- I worked 6am - 2pm
- I went to michelle's at 7ish
- Nooria showed up with her husband
- Went to the LCBO to purchase the large quantity of alcohol that would later be consumed
- Michelle and I had quite a few drinks
- Cat knocked down scratching pole. Funniest thing ever.
- Drove Nooria's husband to work at 10:30
- Continued the drinks and the complaining about work conversation
- 2 am we go visit nooria's husband at work
- 5:45 stumble my way back into my house

Saturday:

- Wake up at 9:15
- Wait around until 3pm for plans that never went through.
- Went to Michelle's place
- Tried to scrunch my hair ( lol ..doesn't work with insane-o straight hair )
- Went to shoppers drugmart
- Went back to Michelle's and had dinner
- Watched the biggest loser
- Had a ridiculous text message war
- Came home

and now it's sunday and I have a whole day in front of me. I'm going to stay home all day since there is some crap I need to get resolved. Jesus. I'm going nuts, honestly. Which means I'm going to go dance around my room.

♥

Thu, 03 Apr 2008 22:48:08 GMT

I'm so proud of myself with keeping up with my bills and saving money lately. I'm saving money like mad and paying off my debt quicker than I thought I'd be able to. It's such a good learning experience. I'm just glad I had my aunt to help me out. I put my bills on her line of credit and I'm paying that off. Interest at 6% compared to 26% is much easier to pay off! My money management skills are getting much better. And now that I've saved up the money for that Chanel purse I want, I don't know if I'm going to buy it. It seems like such a shocker to spend all of that money that I've been saving in one shot. Oh well. We'll see.

I need to think of something to do this weekend. This guy I met last weekend wants to hang out, but we'll see. Random people kind of creep me out.

Work today was okay. Nothing to really complain about, but nothing spectacular either.

I don't think I really have much to update on. I'm going to go have a bath and read some tabloids, aha.

Ta ta
<3

you cut me open and I keep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love.

Wed, 02 Apr 2008 23:56:05 GMT

My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I....

Keep bleeding

So I'm having a particularily rough week. I feel like I'm in an "ugly" rut. You know when you know you're not ugly, but your going through a phase where you just don't care what your physical appeance looks like? I mean, I'm not wearing make up, my hair is always up in an ugly ponytain, I'm wearing sweats to work and using the excuse " starting at six means that I don't have the time to do all of that anymore". Which is valid, but not exactly true. I just want to go back to the days where I felt pretty. Because when I feel pretty, I believe it and it makes me happier. And when I feel ugly, it's depressing and just makes me care even less about what I look like. Which makes it a cycle from day to day. And if I could I'd just snap back into that mindframe, but it's the lack of motivation because when I do put on make up I don't exactly feel pretty anymore. Buh. I don't know what my issue is. I'll get over it, but I'm getting rather annoyed.

sigh.

anyways, I have to go and watch big brother!!

Tue, 18 Mar 2008 18:58:09 GMT

oooh, look at this. Two updates in two days. Am I on a roll or what?!

So anyways, this morning was just horrid. My phone does this weird thing where sometimes it just turns off on its own, without having a dead battery or anything. And it did it to me last night. I had it on last night, I set my alarm for the morning, and went to sleep. I woke up this morning and it was still dark, and I figured since my alarm hadn't gone off yet maybe it was still early. So I go to check my phone for the time and the damn thing is turned off!! So I panic and get out of bed, check the time... 6:18. I start work at 6. So I can only imagine that they're all bitching that I'm not there and that I haven't called in, and since my phone is off it goes right to voice mail. Oh man.   It was so horrible. I got to work about 20-25 minutes later and it ruined my entire day. I was crabby, everything I did felt rushed, and I just couldn't shake that feeling.   I'm going to have to set like, three alarm clocks to ensure that this NEVER happens again.

So after reading that, you can understand why I'm just going to SKIP writing about work. Ugh. My level of frustration is pretty high right now. Now I'm at home, and I'm more tired today than I normally would be, and I'm supossed to go out for dinner, but I really don't want to. I'm so grumpy. I just want to stay home and do absolutely nothing.

ugh. I think I need to have a nap or go for a walk or something.
ta ta.

when stars collide

Tue, 18 Mar 2008 01:57:16 GMT

So, once again it's been ages since I've done this. I swear, I read all of the journals everyday. I check this site a few times a day, but never bother to actually write anything in my journal. And everytime I do my "monthly update" I say that I should start doing this daily, but I never follow through with it. Oh well. Maybe this time I will.

There's nothing new, really. Except for the fact that, that sentence was a big fat lie!! There is so much crap going on in my life right now, but it's not stuff I'm going to publicly display. You never know who reads this thing. Maybe I'll post this link all over the place. I love my silent stalkers, aha.

This weekend was probably the best one I've had in a while. Drinks, tokes, and a dance party for sure. And then after that comes the day of sitting on the couch, watching tv while talking and laughing about all of the crazy shit that went on the night before. It reminds me of high school days, but the conversations had were much different. Instead of "who'd you hook up with?" It was more like "It's actually pretty serious". well..actually, aha. There was one part of the night that was just like the high school days. Good times had, for sure.

Sunday afternoon should have been a write off, but I'm so used to it, I've stopped expecting anything different. I wish I had someone to actually talk to about this topic so I could stop convincing myself that it's going to work itself out. Some things just don't go the way you wish they would, and no matter how much you do, or how patient you are it's not going to change a single thing when the situation is fucked whether it involves you or not. So you should just get over it and move on to something new, yes ? Whatever, I'm not going to let this ruin yet again another day! I've had a pretty great day today.

I'm so emo, man. Ahah. It's pretty embarassing. I'm even listening to the music to go along with my whining. aha.

Anyways, I should probably head to bed. I'm exhausted. Waking up at 3:30 is not fun.

<3

sweet baby jesus

Sun, 17 Feb 2008 17:56:25 GMT

so, I'm not working tomorrow. Thank GOD. My stress level is so high these days. It used to take a lot to get me stressed out to the point of snapping, and now it's not so hard. It's actually pretty easy. And It's because I never actually de-stress. I try to, and I relax and feel better when I leave work. But my "default" stress level is just so high now, I get stressed over little things because I'm stressed to begin with. It's really frustrating, and I really hate it.

I've actually had a really good weekend though. And I'm glad that it's not over yet :)

I've also decided to take up scrapbooking. I used to do it with a friend a few years back, but never got serious about it. It was fun though, so I want to get back into that. Pick up a hobby, you know? Something that takes up some of my spare time, or that I can pick up anytime I want when I'm at home.

Anyways, I don't really have much to say...

ta ta

Mon, 11 Feb 2008 22:21:43 GMT

So, today was quite possible one of the W O R S T days of my life. I have never in my life been stressed out to the point I was today. And I never want to experience that again. That level of stress is not need. So what does that mean? Either the work place has to change, or the job does.

So that's that.

Yesterday was Rebecca's Party. That was pretty good. I love those kids.

I'm going to try to wear makeup more often. I need to feel pretty, and my work place doesn't help with that. I feel very un-feminine there.

So with that said..some photos

my tuna face.. you know what I'm talkin about...aha.

and that's all, folks.

Sat, 09 Feb 2008 19:06:19 GMT

I put on make up for the first time in AGES today. And I feel so out of practice. It's not that bad, but I forgot how to shape, so the shape isn't exactly that flattering. Oh well.

I went to walmart and bought Rebecca's Birthday present. I bought her an easy bake oven and all of the accessories I could find for it, lol. And an ourfit that's really cute. I love Carole's kids.

anyways, here's a few photos:

The blue ones were from today.

This was from the last time I put on make up. I don't have any full face photos of it though

And that's Becca :)

Mon, 04 Feb 2008 10:07:44 GMT

ugh. I need something to keep me awake this morning, so here I am..occupying myself for about 5 minutes.
I really didn't want to get out of bed this morning. 4:30 came so quick. I woke up at 3:30 because I had to pee SO badly. It was crazy. So I went back to sleep for what seemed like 2 seconds, and then my alarm went off.
My eyes won't stop watering.

I'm really glad for skin products. Especially when winter comes around. I have such a routine. I love toners. aha. If you have one small blemish and put this toner on, it stings! Makes it feel like it's actually working, aha. I have so many different mosturizers. I'm never gonna run out.

Ugh. I'm so tired that what I'm writing isn't even flowing. I actually have to think or something to write. If only I could go back to bed...sigh.

anyways.. Off to work I go.

stone sour

Mon, 04 Feb 2008 00:30:22 GMT

I had a pretty decent day today. I woke up, thought I was going out for lunch with Dan today but that didn't happen. I had family come over and ended up staying home for most of it. It was pretty good though. I like random visits.

I did a bunch of laundry, cleaned a bit, rearranged a section of my room. I think it looks better. It's slightly awkward,but I'll just have to deal with it. Then I went to staples and picked up a few things. I bought an ink cartridge for my printer so it works now. yay.
After that I went to shoppers drugmart. I swear, I could go in there every single day and buy something. It's my favourite store. It was 20 times the points today for cosmetics and fragrances. And Guess who had a 50 dollar gift card for shoppers?! That's right. ME. so I bought 50 dollars of cosmetics that I don't really need, and a few tabloids that I love and some crispy mini's. I love those things, man. Does anyone remember the commercial with the red headed lady? I knew her, aha. She worked with my friend Todd at Second City.

anyhow, i'm going to go enjoy my crispy mini's and the O.C. and head to bed. I have a feeling it's going to be busy tomorrow at work. Sigh.

we live on front porches and swing life away

Sun, 03 Feb 2008 02:11:01 GMT

I think I'm entering one of those "ruts". You know? Nothing seems horrible, but nothing seems good. I find myself staring into space thinking about random things, and not paying attention to any of my surroundings. I went to Sunrise this evening with Trevor while he dropped his paperwork off and I barely remember any of it. The other day we went for a drive out of town and I barely remember coming back. I just sit there. I have nothing to say. Half of the time I can't even remember what I'm thinking about. And when I do remember what I'm thinking about, it's not usually anything pleasant. I'm not entirely sure what to make of any of this. I'm hoping it's just a phase that will pass. Hopefully soon. You know how they say 'misery loves company'? Everything seems to be going so well for everyone else around me, and it's bad to say it, but it makes me sick. I'm so tired of hearing all of it. I try to make the best of out of situations, but nothing is working these days which is really frustrating. Anyways.

I spent my day playing with the dogs in the snow and playing nintendo. How productive. This snow is really bumming me out. I want to go out, but I hate snow so I don't want to go anywhere in this shit.

Ugh. I'm way too bitter to be writing in this journal. I don't want to look back on my journals and see how bitter I was. boo.

did santa ever hit you in the gut with a baseball bat ?

Mon, 28 Jan 2008 00:49:01 GMT

you know when someone wants something from you, and they hang around until you give it to them, and then they back off once they get it? It's probably one of the worst feelings ever when it has something to do with relationships. It makes you feel pretty shitty.

Sigh.

That's all I have to say, really.

Sat, 19 Jan 2008 21:28:40 GMT

I am exhausted this weekend. Last week was such a full week. I didn't really do anything besides work, but still. I worked a 60 hour week. Lot's of hours. There's not too much else to update about. I signed up for a membership at Extreme Fitness at Markham and Lawrence. It seems pretty cool. The consultation part doesn't really excite me since I don't want someone else to evaluate me. I just want to do my own thing, but I guess it's for the best. They'll show me how to get the most that I can out of the equiptment, which is what I want. I just want to be healthy. And of course I want to loose some weight, but my main goal is to be healthy. Gyms are pretty expensive though. $76.00 a month, and thats only for the one location. AND there's no pool. But that's okay. I have my own anyways. My aunt paid for the whole year for both of us, which was really nice. It's too much, really. But I'm not gonna complain. It's something I've really wanted for a while. The trainers seem really nice too. I'm just paranoid that everyone's watching me. I'm gonna have to load my ipod up again.

I'm going out for sushi this evening with Amanda. I hope I like it. I've never had sushi before, and I'm really not one for sea food. We'll see, I guess.

Anyways, I'm off to get ready
ciao.

here I come to save the day!!!!

Wed, 09 Jan 2008 22:39:04 GMT

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!
That's how I'm feelin right now! (which means great).
I was just sweatin' to the oldies with my good pal Richard Simmons.
What a work out! Not really, but it was a lot of fun, that's for sure. You really do end up sweating though. I feel rather gross. I'm gonna have a shower soon.    I forgot how much fun working out can be. It puts me in a much better mood than doing nothing does. Now that the video is done I feel like dancing around the house, aha.   At the end of every "session" they ask you to check your heart rate... like I know how to do that! Kaleena..please inform me, aha.   This video will have to do until I can find a place for a tread mill. I wish I had a work out room in my house, ahah.

Work today was pretty frigging awesome. Miss A-man-da was a little grumpy in the morning when all of the other people arrived, but that's normal. We all get like that since sometimes managment can be a bit ridiculous!  It wasn't a crazy day today, which was wonderful. Lots of laughs, lots of relaxing moments. It was a good day, overall.

Tomorrow is pay day! woo hoo!! And it's going to be a big(ger) pay since I worked the holiday. Anddd, on friday I'm working a double shift (16 hours! woof ), but it'll make for a normal pay week since I missed monday. So I'm making up the extra shift on friday. So that obviously makes me a bit happier. It's sad that the more money I get a week, the happier I am. Oh well, I need money! I have bills to pay.

And I have stuff to do, so I'm out!

<3

what are you talking?

Wed, 09 Jan 2008 01:42:37 GMT

Hairspray is such a cute movie. I love musicals. I'm such a nerd. I love crooners too. I want to marry one, one day.

Sigh. I had the worst sleep ever last night. I woke up what seemed like every five minutes. And I had this bizzare dream. I don't really remember what happened, but I remember waking up and thinking it was pretty awkward. I fell back asleep and had another dream. I don't remember that one at all though.   It was such a long night, which is usually good. But not when your sleep is disturbed.

Work was actually pretty good today. It was super busy (we did 112 calls by the time I had left), but it wasn't ridiculous. The guys were pretty decent today. I didn't argue with one of them! aha. And I barely had to tell them to stand by. So that's a pretty decent day in my books.   Laura kills me sometimes. She's not someone I could see myself doing anything with outside of work, but working with her can be such a good time. All we do is make fun of each other and call each other names. And draw pictures of each other ( one day we drew each other as roasting pigs with apples in our mouths). And today I emailed the picture to management and they printed it out and posted it in the office. haha. It was so good.

I think I'm going to invest in a treadmill. I have no idea where I could put it though. That's the only problem.  Everywhere I think of putting it is either in the way, or too far out of the way. Like, I'm not going to put it in my aunts craft room, and I'm not going to put it in the living room either.  Sigh.   I should just buy the damn thing and then figure out where it can go once I get it home.

I'm going to go make a cup of tea and finish watching hairspray.

pressure! prrrrrrrpa pressure!

Mon, 07 Jan 2008 19:18:25 GMT

Ugh. I feel like complete crap today. A bit better than yesterday though. All weekend I've felt pretty horrid. And I'm pretty sure this little kid at the hospital gave me the flu. He was throwing up everywhere and was all sweaty and pale. He'd been sitting in the emergency room for 5 hours. That's pretty terrible.  That place is like a germ - infested world. I hate the emergency room more than anything. Especially during the flu season.  It's nothing but germs.

Anyways, I just listened to Skindred for the first time in litterally YEARS, and I've fallen in love all over again. The first time I heard them was in grade 10. Six friggin years ago. Holy moly. I feel old, aha.

It feels good to be out of bed. I've either been in bed, or laying on a couch all weekend.   This whole being sick thing makes me aggravated. I really hate missing work unless I want to. And this week I really didn't want to. I'm actually starting to get somewhat caught up on bills and I've missed out on a hundred and something dollars taking this frigging day off. Oh well. At least it started on the weekend and not monday morning. That would have blown.

I finished all three seasons of Grey's Anatomy. I swear, I'm too attatched. aha. When I was at the hospital I saw doctors flirting with each other, and I caught myself thinking "I wonder if he's her mcdreamy.." ahah.   I love tv drama. It's so over the top, and so ridiculous, but so easy to relate to. I can't wait to get the gilmore girls series on dvd. Awesome. I started the third season of Laguna Beach. It's not as good as the first two, but that's okay. I really dislike this Cami girl. Actually, I think I dislike all of the characters. Haha. It's another one that's over the top. I wonder if these people ever used to be "normal".

I'm really starting to enjoy the artist psapp. I'm not too sure if it's a group, artist, or what. But the music is quirky, weird and I'm lovin' it.   Same with Imogen Heap.   Awesome music, really.

I can't think of much else to say, so this post will be a short one.
<3

please don't stop the music !

Sun, 30 Dec 2007 17:25:28 GMT

I'd be his McIntern any day! Oh baby.

This show is a bad addiction, aha. Getting me to stop watching episodes is as hard as stealing carrots from a rabbit.

Anyways, I've been on my death bed all weekend. It's been such a horrid few days. My head has felt like it was going to explode. I had no desire to leave my room or do anything but just lay down. I turned my phone off for a good chunk of the weekend and just relaxed. I feel a million times better today, but still not very good. Any improvement is good though, so woo!!

I honestly can't wait until the new year. I've never really done the whole, new years resolution thing. Or not properly, anyways. I've made them, but never followed through with them. usually I'd post a whole list of things on here that I want to change, but I think this year is going to be different. I really want to change a lot of things and I don't really want to make a list that everyone else reads. I'm doing it for myself, not anyone else. I want to Improve myself, you know? And you know what makes me pretty happy? The fact that to "be happy" isn't one of my goals this year. Why's that, you ask? Because I AM happy! Over all I'm more happy than I am not, and that's such a good feeling. And maybe that will help me follow through with my new years resolutions. It's a lot easier to try to improve yourself when you're already happy with the way things are.

I've been through what I consider to be a lot this year, some good, some bad. But the majority of the bad things have helped me learn a lot about myself, and I know how to deal with things better this year than I did last year.

anyways, this rhianna song. Please don't stop the music. I hated it ! so much, and now I love it. I don't even know why, it's not that good. I just want to blare it and dance every where! aha.

I've got laundry to do. Ugh.

ps. who can tell me how to play the sims? I bought it and have no idea how to play the damn thing!

long way to happy

Wed, 26 Dec 2007 23:42:06 GMT

I feel like I updated just yesterday, but then I look back at my last entry and realize that it was ages ago.

You know, I usually love the christmas season, but this year I couldn't wait for it to be over with. I just couldn't get into the mood. I really tried. I went shopping at christmas stores, tried to get my christmas shopping done early (or at least on time), I attempted to decorate the front of my house, etc. But nothing worked. Sigh. I'll definitely try for next year.

My aunt went way overboard with christmas shopping this year (but that's nothing new). She bought me way too much stuff, but I love it all. Especially my Wii (aha, don't make fun. I can play duck hunt!! ) and my new camera, and my speakers, and my new bedding ( who else loves black bedding? ), and everything else! And the Christmas dinner we had on Saturday was good times. I hadn't had such a good time with my family in ages. Thanks again, min (and john ) for coming! Good times had by all!

So what's new? Nothing, really. Work is the same, day in and day out. I'm starting to get really sick of the atmosphere though. It feels like everyday I stay there, the closer I am to becoming stuck there. And that's definitely not an industry I want to stay in much longer. It's too harsh for me. Yes, I admitted it. I don't like the way people talk to each other, joking around is fine. But hearing certain things over and over again starts to get on my nerves. I don't like how often people lie. I just don't find it fun anymore. I want to work somewhere that kind of forces you to dress nicely. Where you CAN'T go to work in trackpants. I want to work somwhere that makes me want to look good. I want to work at a place where I have my OWN desk that I can personalize with pictures and little nick nacks. I just want something a little bit more professional, you know? I love working with Amanda though. The more we talk, the more I realize how much we're alike. She's a good one.

I'm really getting into Grey's Anatomy. It's such a good show. There's so much drama that I can relate to. I don't know if that's a good thing, or a bad thing. I'm sure it's a good thing for the show. I mean, what show doesnt' want it's situations to appeal to it's viewers? But to know what the characters are going through sometimes really scares me, because it's stuff I'd never want myself to experience, and I have. I don't know if I'm making much sense. Oh well.

Since I'm a granny these days, I'm going to go have a shower and head to bed. I don't think I've been getting enough sleep lately. I cant' seem to fall asleep before 11:30, which makes it really hard to wake up at 4:00.

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